Computer Companions

I didn't get much accomplished today as it was one of those days where I just needed the day off, ya know what I mean?  I just tried to be more present with less "to do" lists and tasks swarming around inside my head.  It was a nice break.

Now after a nice day as I lie in bed with my computer I can't help thinking how many people in the world also go to bed with their computers as their companion?  I'm betting there is a lot of single people whose best friend, lover or whatever you want to call it, is their laptop computer.  It probably even lies in the bed next to them where a person use to be and often times may even go to sleep on top of them.  Hell, they may even have sex on it, or at least watch it in order to satisfy their sexual need.  And I also wonder if this is this where the technology age is taking us.   Replacing complicated relationships with loving computers that do just what they are told without any arguments or fights.  That talk to us and relate to us exactly what we want to see and hear without any problems save for the occasional virus that isn't contagious.  I find that a scary thought.

Now with an IPad we don't even have to leave it at home as we can take it with us.  After all we don't want to be alone all day without being able to finger the keyboard.  As cold and impersonal as computers may be it beats being alone and gives us something to take away the nothingness.

I think I'll close mine now and pick up a good book.  The old fashioned kind that has real pages to turn. Sometimes I miss the old days.  But then again, even with a great book, you still have to turn the page.

KJ

Dreams

Had a bizarre dream that was so real and yet I didn't remember it until hours later while I was driving to play poker.  I don't even remember if it happened during a nap I took this afternoon or the night before.  I do remember the dream however.

I was visiting my friend and co-host for HELP!! (www.pokerradionetwork.com) Blake Ian in New York.  I was going to spend the night at his house.  We went there and there were these gates you had to go through and into this multi-level complex.  As we climbed the outside stairs which boarded the parking structure evening was descending upon us and people of the night were waking up.  Homeless people who looked like zombies or something out of the movie "I Am Legend," rolled out from underneath cars.  They're skin grey and taught and there gaunt skulls baring teeth awakening.  My bed was exposed to the outside structure and Blake says to me - "you might wanna sleep upstairs inside the house with me.  Only problem is that you'll have to sleep on the floor."  To which I replied, "yeah, no problem.  Good idea!"

We proceed to climb more stairs and unlock gates and walk into a courtyard.  As we walk into one of the most beautiful places I've ever seen I look up at the sky.  Everything is so beautiful.  From the clouds to the setting sun to the towering pine trees that fill this expansive courtyard with winding pathways through the trees.  I feel so guilty for having this experience and remembering the ghostly figure rolling out from underneath the car that I decide to go back and help him.

I know that it will take great skill to transform such an unconscious crack-head but I have to try.  I somehow acquire a small packet of Meth to tempt him to come to me.  I then lasso him with some rope and tie him up and put him in the front seat of a car and drive away....  that's all I remember.

My days have been equally bizarre.  I feel as though I'm waking up myself in some way, becoming more conscious if you will.  I listen to Eckhart Tolle's "A New Earth," now for the second time and it sounds totally foreign to me from when I listened to it a year or so ago.  I understand what he is saying now.  I can relate.

On a physical note my legs are sore from my 3 mile run today which I did in 28:40.  In poker I had a disasterous session.  Making mistakes from the first hand dealt to the last and getting punished every step of the way.  I finally pulled up stake and am ready to head back to my dreams and live to play another day.  I may have to walk instead of run tomorrow and enjoy the journey a bit more.

Eat, Pray, Love

I just finished watching the movie Eat, Pray, Love and was pleasantly surprised at how fantastic this film was to experience.  Julia Roberts leads an outstanding cast of great actors realistically entertaining and enlightening us along her journey of self discovery.  I found her discoveries both illuminating as well as familiar in the challenges she faced and the answers that she discovered along the way.  

The only thing that I thought was unrealistic was how many great people, friends and mentors showed up almost instantly where she travelled.  Realistically the journey can be a lot more barren and lonely but I understand that this is a film and you can't just have a person walk around the whole movie in isolation.  In fact, the movie is a lot about that - how one relates to the people and the experiences that they are going through.  I teared up more then once and ran the gamut of emotions from indifference to joy throughout the film.  I highly recommend you see it and if you can go by yourself (since the movie is about self-discovery) then I highly recommend that you do as I did and go alone.

Enjoy the Journey,

Kenna

Test 123...123

This is just a test to see where this gets posted.  I'm new at blogging and am like a baby learning how to crawl.  Where will I end up?  Hopefully not atop the coffee table with no balance and what looks like a hundred foot drop from a baby's perspective.